April 2025

 Dear Blog, 

It's been a while and I guess it's the time of the "once in a blue moon" when I'm feeling more sentimental. I would like to dedicate this post to someone who once used to mean a whole lot to me. 

 2 nights ago, I dreamt of you - yes, you, of all humans in the world. 

I dreamt that I was back in my own home country with a mutual friend of ours and somehow rather I saw you from my side eye when I was trying to pass through quite a crowd. 

Somehow rather, the friend left their bag behind and was asked to go back to find it.

When I went back, I saw you looking straight at me into my soul for some lost answers. 

"Hi", I said 

"Oh, you talking to me?", you answered back. 

"Well, someone's gonna start talking" . . . 

. . . and that was it . . . 

I woke up with my daughter and husband still asleep beside me, thinking that it was too good to be true that one way or another, we finally met and getting the closure that we needed 11 years ago. 

I can only think the reason why I would dream about you cause 20th April meant a lot to me 15 years ago

That's all from me now, Chun

Till the next time or next life we see each other again. 

With love,

Yeng

Hello, blogspot :)

Hello 2024 :) 

Wow, time does pass. 

The last time I used blogspot was for my project to pass my English project. Here I am now - 30 years old, married with 2 kids with a humble home. 

I was doing some light reading on own blog and oh boy, I can't recall what I had gone through during my teenage years till early adulthood. 

Now that I am reminiscing my old times, it does make me think of all the what-ifs. 

Back in 2010, I was in love with someone whom I met when Friendster was still a thing. We met and bonded as we were both military band members. Over the years, we had our ups and downs and we did look forward to having a future together, or at least I did. 

Lil' did I know that I was not acknowledge by his mother even till the day we broke up and that he had cheated on me over a girl who looked like me. LDR was definitely not a joke, but it was not an excuse to cheat. 

This was very devastating to me as I looked up to him a lot. 5 years of my youth and devotion to just that 1 person was just gone in a blink of an eye. 

Heartbroken, sad, misery, suicidal thoughts - you name it. Whatever negativity I had in mind was all I could think of because I couldn't see a future without him. 

I was thankful that I still had a handful of friends to distract me and kept me going on. I had all the fun I had as my ex as he was very controlling with the friends I was with - especially of the opposite sex. For once, I didn't have to care of what he thinks and I can have more of my social life and spending more time with my mother. 

In 2014, I have finally graduated from my Diploma and was approached to work for Resorts World Sentosa. My first official job and earning a very humble salary as a fresh graduate. 

I remember meeting my husband there on my first day of work in the same restaurant at the back of the house. I would still, till this very day, remind my husband how cold he was towards me back then. 

I was hesitant to be in a relationship back then when my husband tried to pursue me after that awkward introduction. I had explain that I was deeply hurt and wasted 5 years of my devotion over a guy who ended up cheated on me. 

Till this day, it makes me think back and am grateful that my husband waited till I finally open up to him. We barely dated a year and *pop*, there goes the question that has changed our lives forever. 

I do admit that my husband and I are not always on the same page most of the time, but hey, opposite attracts! We have had our ups and downs and episodes of challenges we had to face back then. 

From fighting about our parents to work, from purchasing our house to naming our kids - our journey was really not that smooth sailing for sure. 

It is now 2024 - 10 years together with my husband, Edmond (married for coming 8 years now) and 2 kids later, here I am updating my life in summary while standing at the reception at work to past time. If time ever permits, I would love to document about my life here as my own diary to reminisce in the future. 

That is all from me now. More updates laterssssss! 

Warmest Regards,

Adelene Loh 

 

last post for AE

30th May 2014

ahhh, finally it's the final week of me posting something on this blog. I might leave this blog "dead" again. Well, today was our MICE presentation and I must say, Mr Sahul is happy with my group =)

We have had worked on MICE project for weeks and the outcome met his expectations. There were a few mistakes, but I'm sure there will be rooms for improvement.

late post >.<

25th May 2014

Okay, this is definitely a very late post. This week is just so busy!

Hmmm, now i remember that I'm supposed to blog about Warm Bodies xD

well, it's a story about this man, R, who's a corpse. He finds himself wondering about how will it ever be like to be able to feel human again and he eventually did. He met Julie and eventually fell in love. He killed Julie's boyfriend and spared hers, brought her back to where he stays for a few days and helped her back home.

oh wells, at least throughout the whole journey, R managed to become human again and lived happily ever after with Julie eventhough he doesn't remember anything about his past life as human.

cheers!

when a girl feels loved

17th May 2014

This week is rather busy. So many things to do and yet so little time. Projects still undone and it's just so frustrating at times when you can't get things done at the time you want.

However, what eases me off is when he comforts me with his random hugs =)

and yeah, i guess i have someone else in mind now even though i don't know if he feels the same towards me =/

till then, i have till graduation to know if he's serious with me

i'm getting this blog active again

6th May 2014

Dear Blog and Mr Nate :)

Hi, i'm back again!

Life has been going on pretty well and oh boy, i'm so sleepy now >.< 2 nights ago, i remember sleeping at around 1am and yesterday i slept at 12am O.o  now i understand why my mum never let me sleep at late hours and the reason is simple; i cannot get up the next morning for morning classes!

more on about today!

HS progress test just ended today and extra class is brought forwards to Friday >.<

ahhhh, i find this rather funny about posting my current life after 3 years of not posting.. it seems just like yesterday i was just complaining about SPM, school, band, tuition classes and dreaming on about  love :/

i still remember i was once an active band member and ended up as the president at Form 5.. i still remember being randomly active in tuition classes, especially in Biology and Physics.. not forgetting that i have always hated Bahasa Melayu =)

come to thing of it, i'm proud to be able to speak in Bahasa.. as proud as i am able to speak in Bahasa Melayu, i'm no longer proud as a Malaysian.. the politics happening are inhumane and very embarrassing..

die, i can't make it any further now.. i'm damn damn damn sleepy now, gotta stop right here and sleeping in early!

goodnight, world!

To my dear, dear AE mentor, Mr Nate

29th April 2014

Alright now.. it's been a very, very long time since I have last updated my blog, well, it's been 3 years over now.. 

i'm now using this blog for the next 5 weeks for YOU to read, Mr Nate =) 

however, it's a great thing, too that i am now reviving this blog of mine.. i remember using this blog to express my frustrations, anger, sadness and complaints.. well, that was when i was much younger.. i remember started blogging since 15 and all the way till i was 17.. 

i remember being deeply in love with the man of my dreams who i met in Friendster back in 2008, but it's now all history since February this year.. 

looking back at my previous posts, i see myself very immature and rather sensitive, more like a coward and hiding everything and yet looking for trouble..haha, i know understand why my mum would refer me as rather childish and never look at things the other way.. 

now that i am 20, many things have changed.. i have got a very different lifestyle, so different that no one remembers who and how i have been all thee while until yesterday.. everyone saw the photos that i have posted about me in a photoshoot, for portfolio purposes.. i remember i was once a nobody back in Ipoh, but now that i'm somewhat a somebody now, everyone looked at me at a different aspect.. they didint remember me or maybe i can put it in a way that no one even remembered that i existed.. i feel rather funny, now that i'm being refered as like one of those Miss Popular in Ipoh now.  

ahhh, i'm going in too deep now >.< 

more update next week now! 

HEY~

25th June 2011
hey, people~ i'm finally back for blogging AFTER such a BUSY day =.=l'l all these while, was supposingly to be preparing for sports day, but in the end, we have to go for this S.O.X thingy or whatever it is, in stadium indera mulia ^.^ and sports was postponed to 2nd of july.. we had a friendly drumline match and friendly music match with our brother school band, ACS MILITARY BAND XD.. it was fun eventhough we were tired like mad.. the boys aren't that bad.. their percussion is strong and so OHMMM..

the most surprising thing is that my darling came for me ~~ it was unexpected and i love it so much XD over  reacting, i know.. who cares?? ilovehim .. did i mention that we're already 14 months and 5 days old ?? tweeheehee~~ i love the way we are now and i don't want a single thing to change if that can be possible.. i love us just the way we are now.. the ChunYeng love story never ends~ anyway, like i said, it was unexpected and i was indeed very shocked as i eventually got tapped on my shoulder very hard and my heart was pumping very fast as i thought it was a stranger or someone trying to get me or something .. haha.. funny and lame, i know ..

oh, well.. enough of blogging for now .. many things had happened in the time between since the day i last blogged, but i am currently very exhausted and tired .. off to rest for me =p i'll blog some other time when i can ,,

ciaos~

-alyloh-

p/s : i want the photo which we had snapped today ~

i'm superb LAZIE

16th March 2010
hey, people.. i'm back again.. it's the holidays and i'm so not freaking enjoying it nor making use of it.. i don't underdatnd myself-lahh.. SPM coming soon and i might have to admit that my OWN SPM is 5 months away =.= awkward, i know.. it'll only be the trials 5 months later.. WHO STNKINGLY CARES ?? i need those results to just get my freaking ass into ngee aun next year.. intake would be in april next year and the open house in on january 2012.. sighhhhhhhhhhh.. 2011 is not even over and i'm already planning for next year and yes, i know i'm freaking myself over with the collage and suff, but i want to do everything the best with my own effort..

nevermind, enough of that.. let me tell you what had happened to me recently.. on saturday, 12th of march, i accidently ate a piece of medium-sized beef by mistake.. i didn't do that on purpose as it was a malay wedding.. Dear Lord, please forgive me.. i mean it that i didn't do on purpose.. ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... oh well, it's just a small mistake, right ?? anyhow, another funny  thing happened to me which was just yesterday.. i was out having lunch and then saw a big group of leo club members.. thw moment i stepped out of kopitiam, alan thoo was looking at me and i was the FIRST one to be asked to trade the plastic bag with a  friendly environment bag as the leo-ians were on a project of 'go green' .. embarrassing enough, i know..

i wonder what's going to happen to me next ??

guess i'd have to sit and wait..

loves,

 frustrated and annoyed y

a busy february

26th February 2011
it's another busy saturday and in fact, i've never had any free time for leisure myself .. everyday is all about homework, school, tuition, homework, tuition, homework, band, tuition, school, practices, revision, homework, tuition, practices, homework, revision, school, tuition, band, tuition, homework and lastly, love.. 

i'm still alive after going through all these for 2 months consecutively without fail at all .. i've been spending all my time with books, books and B-O-O-K-S.. i know that i did study, but sometimes i would wonder whether what i have studied is more than enough without even doing revision.. i admit i'm too lazy, but there's something pushing me too, though .. i'm lack of confidence and support, but what am i to do when ... ... ... well, i've no proper words for that statement.. i simply don't know what to write.. i'm so lack of confidence (??) ISIMPLYDONTKNOWATALL .. sigh .. dear Lord, please bless me with a better future eventhough it could last for just a few minutes.. i would appreciate it well without complaining, i promise..

currently, i am facing some issues that i can hardly solve eventhough it's just a small issue..  effa and gang is complaining that they don't like that way how WE are cooperating.. i mean, i would tolerate with person A, but she wouldn't cooperate with me.. i tau i ada kuasa yang lebih besar tetapi apa boleh saya buat apabila ada orang yang tarak guna langsung mau lawan saya secara mental ?? i mean, it's like person A is trying to be the boss of herself and i know that very well, but i have to do my part to avoid the conflict between person A and i .. i can't cause a conflict and let the cooperation die like that especially in a group of humans of around 50 people and yet, the situation now is that we're having a big function.. i hate to break this up-lahh, but i HATE doing most of the decisions and HATE not knowing anything when majority of the people knows what is happening just BEHIND MY DUMB ASS BACK.. i can't take this anymore and i mean this very seriously.. SIGH ..

second item, i'm under a very big process of trying to study as hard as possible to get my ass into ngee aun poly or maybe prefreably into singapore poly cause it's nearer to where i would be staying =p i want to have a bright future and right up until today, i am still undecided on what to work as and since i don't know what to work as, how am i going to take up the career courses ?? i wanna go for music very badly, i wanna fly in the air very badly, i wanna play in the orchestra very badly and i wanna go for a job that is indeed very challenging, but i know i have to give them all up.. i have to think of the person who i love.. there're so many things for ALY LOH  to think of.. i have an unfixed future, unfixed career and an unfixed work or maybe even more than that .. ihatealloftheseandimeanthemseriously.. life is simply very complicating when you're undecided and don't know where to head your next destination..

i guess i just got too carried away with my complaints for now.. i seriously need a nervous break down from now onwards .. i'll head to my thinking room and give more thought on my problems..

-aly loh-

my FIRST post for January

29th January 2011
it's already toward the end of january and i'm now posting my FIRST post for the year 2011 =.=ll this is such a sad case-LAHH .. eeeeee.. can't help it .. i've been terribly busy with tuition and homework and stay backs all these while and i have absoulutely no time for my ownself.. GAH ~ i can't stand being a 17-year-old teenage girl right now .. being a BL is not in  my wish list ..iwishedtobeasecretarysobadlyandididntgetthatpost=.=..i guess i can't be a PROPER BL after all .. all the humans around me are commenting for this and that and yet i'm not doing anything with it.. actually, that doesn't matter.. what bugs me is that i was getting blamed for a situation just now long ago and it was totally NOT my fault AT ALL..

alright, leave that aside for now.. second item, i seriously LOATHE chemistry to the MAX.. everyone knows that CCL is the ketua panitia kimia, but she is the HELL OF YOURS DREAMS and i mean that statement.. however, the good thing is that this year i gave a good inpession to my class teacher, which means, for the first time in my schooling life, there will be NO COMPLAINTS from the teacher to my dearest mummy <3~~ tweeheehee~~i banyak-banyak suka <3 unlike back when i was 14, that bloody asshole who contaminated me until i was the worst student in the whole school =.= sad, isn't it ?? who cares ?? i have had my JUSTICE ^.^ happy betul~

hmmmm, third item, eh ?? well, so far in school i've been behaving well (i assume).. and i really do all my homework this year and there's really very very VERY less rush-hour work this year.. and i really really did pay attention both in school and tuition classes.. and the funny thing is that i now can do balance equation for chemistry =.=ll oh well, better late than never even try doing it..

lastly before i chao from here, i just wanna drop by and say...

...i love you , sayang <3

adios~

ilots of love,

aly loh

-y-

31st December 2010
i felt so sorry to my bloggie.. i couldn't believe that it's already the last day of 2010.. my form 4 year just ended like so and i'm now waiting to get a year older in another few more hours, which means i'm dying to get my ass OFF of my freaking 5th-form class and get the hell out of HERE..
oh well, guess i have to patient and go through it as well.. anyhow, it'll be a new year tomorrow.. i've got a few wishes to be fulfilled and one of them is the most important one =] YOU are one of them, my dear <3 ahaha.. whatever my wish is, i only have 1 important one although i'm supposed to put the other one as the priority.. nevermind, forget all the craps.. i'm done blogging for now.. i'll update more when anything comes up..

SAYONARA~

lotsa love,

-alyloh-

aka y

title-less

it's so freaking boring~!! whether the exams are still on or not, there're no differences at all.. wait.. actually, there IS .. before exam, we only tension and keep digging ourselves into the books while after exams, WE TENSION ABOUT OUR STUPID, FREAKING MARKS ... ish .. i tak suka langsung .. you know what?? i've just failed at around 6-7 freaking subjects.. i've totally failed all my science subjects and even is my mod. maths and add maths.. i've failed history and i've failed P.E .. at least i didn't fail moral this time .. for the first time in my form 4 life, i've passed moral.. i did well on the structural questions and for the first time, i managed my essay questions.. embarrasing, but i'm still happy about it .. the other subjets are good.. english is the only subject that i WILL NEVER FAIL.. i'm quite satisfied with my bahasa this time.. oh well, nothing is perfect.. nevermind, forget it.. i still have SPM next year.. after SPM, i have college .. and after college, i'm going to work and then my life is DONE.. ahaha.. stupid, i know .. i do wish to be free now, but i couldn't due to the LAST YEAR of school .. GAH.. this sucks .. ISH ..

shake me and wake me up cause it's already OCTOBER O.o ??

alright, it's already October and time passed so fast.. haizz.. penghargaan is coming very near and examz are coming right after penghargaan .. this function is worst than sports day.. of all beautiful days, WHY THE DAY BEFORE EXAMS ARE ON ??? could someone just simply SUE THE FREAKING SCHOOL ?? people want to study properly here and i'm not even paying attention this few days in most of the classes .. i can swear my chemistry paper is gonna flunk down to hell.. honestly, i'm lack of confidence and trust on myself, i assume.. what am i to do when i'm both a leader and a very unorganised student ?? i feel responsible and irresponsible at the same time.. THIS SUCKS.. how i wish i'm currently doing my last year in a college and before i know, i'm done with my studies and off to my career as a musician or an orchestra player or maybe working under the tourism section.. and after a few years, just simply get married and have babies and my life is SIMPLY DONE .. idiotic, i know.. but still, what am i to do ?? even if i'm not in college now, how i would wish i'm currently doing my SPM exam this year and off to Ngee Aun Polytechcnic School in Singapore next year.. AIKZZ .. so many things to do before i get my ass off of Malaysia and before i even graduate from high school .. *sigh* i guess i'm done with all of my confessions.. i'm stressing myself too much and have been thinking too much .. alright then, i'm done for today.. gotta focus on what i gotta do .. ciaos ~~

OHMYFREAKING GOD =.=

hey there, people.. guess i couldn't update my blog at the time that i wanted to.. kinda busy these days.. can't hepl it, though.. i didn't wish for such complicating things to happen on me.. being a leader is a hectic =.= GAH~~ i really feel like strangling myself already.. oh well, i can't do anything else.. hmmm... there're not much updates from me for now.. my last update was a few days from 17th August XD .. i cronically LOVE that particular day and i love YOU =) .. heehee .. i guess that's the only special thing for this moment.. i'll update more when there's anything special .. ciaos ~~~ p/s : i've removed it and it was hard, but still, i know i had to move on PROPERLY.. i love you < 3

life still goes on when you are dying to know something

hello, hello, people !! i'm back ~ alright, then.. today's the 15th of August 2010.. well, it's quite early in the morning ( or i supposed, not cause it's already 10.48am now ).. nothing special happened.. i'm still waiting for the 17th to come.. GAH ~~!!! it's so hard surviving in curiousity.. WHY ?? it's because i wanna know what the freaking heck is the THE BOX =.=ll lame, i know.. i'm still waiting for tuesday and today is ONLY SUNDAY =.= how many more freaking hours do i have to wait, man .. couldn't imagine, anyway.. haizz .. guess that's all i can say, people.. sunday is not and NOT my favourite day.. i was supposed to go out today to have some fun, but since so many humans couldn't free themselves for me, i guess i'm A-L-O-N-E ALONE ~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nevermind, forget it.. who cares XD i've got house chores, instead .. anyway, ciaos ~!!

oh-my-FREAKING-God =.=

it's already the 6th of august, humans and i didn't realise how fast time passes.. i know, i know.. i haven't been updating my updates as often as before.. the last update was on 25th of April... ............WOAH~ it's more than 3 months, humans.. guess it's a new record to break.. so, since i'm now revived from being "gone" from my blog for so long, i'll might just drop a few events here c: FIRSTLY, the most important thing of my life after so long.. i love him to the max < 3 ~!! i guess we were meant to be known as one.. you guys can blame me.. he's my DRUG and i mean it.. my oh-so-sweet MAN.. critise me if you want, i don't mind because I LOVE HIM XD SECOND on the list is that i'm getting very used to being an upper FORM 4 student science student.. i can get the concept and stuff.. it's all on self-diciplining and responsibilities and i know i'm talking like an adult HERE.. NEXT, the most shocking news of all, people and i mean it very seriously.. it seems that i'll be leading the band from 2010 till 2011.. yup, you've guessed it, folks .. the BAND LEADER of the 2010/2011 board.. shocking, right ?? sigh .. what to do ?? kind of a hectic post to hold.. still, what has to be done, has to be done.. NEWAYZ, i've been given some new names lately by ...... hmmm .. i haven't think of a name for this guy yet.. ah~ nevermind .. i'll remain the name 'cute hamster' for him =p LOL~ so, the 'cute hamster' is naming me ...... let me see ... specky, auntie nasi lemak and last in the list is MOSQUITO =.=lll GAWD~~ i'd prefer him calling me ALY THE SPECKY =.=ll it's ridiculous, i know.. still, who cares ?? i still prefer to be known as a guinea pig XD well, i guess this is all for now.. from now onwards, i'm gonna revive back my bloggie =p T-T-F-N, tata for now, humans ~

love, love, love ~ i want your love

when a girl feels loved < 3

when pesta ria came

11th April 2010 yesterday, 10th of April was MGS's fun fair day .. also known as the day i GOT SO DAMN, FREAKING SICK .. woke up early in the morning at around 5.30 and reached school at 6.30 .. i got very busy with the uniform stuff and instrument stuff AND a quest to FIND THE TEACHER IN CHARGE .. it took me almost 1 or 2 hours to finally find the teacher .. in the end, i ended up OT-ed my job for a while .. while i was on my duty, i LELONG-ED like a MAK CIK .. however, 4sc4 had a good business .. at first we had difficulties to socialize with the uncles and aunties ; outsiders, i would say .. slowly, we got used to it except for the fact that I WAS NOT SATISFY WITH THAT GROUP OF PATHETIC BOYS .. they made fun of ME =.= sshhheeesssshhhh .. some guys really don't know how to treat a lady .. at least that mood only lasted for a moment .. after that, melz came and hung out .. fun part was when i get to force some humans to come to my stall and buy the stuff XD .. after all the blablabla stuff, i left at 1 and went for class .. being a CPE student has never been my cup of tea .. i regret entering CPE this .. i should have entered H.CAE this year as i still can get the chance to enter CPE next year .. what i really regret on the 10th of April is that i went to class with a high temperature .. yes, i had fever .. the worst fever ever .. i was stubborn 'cause i refused to call my mum to fetch me home .. i didn't want to miss any lessons, but in the end, i ended up sleeping in the class soundly .. at least throwing up some stuff cooled me down(??) i had the pressure at my throat .. i just rushed to the ladies XD .. after all the stuff, i was damn weak, damn dizzy and DAMN NON-SPIRITED.. reached home after class and took my temperature .. i was shocked as the temperature was 39.1 degrees .. i straight away sleep and sleep AND SLEEP .. ... ... ... ... ... then, today, 11th April, came .. i was somwhow awoken at 7.30 .. after that, i couldn't sleep .. i rolled all over my bed XD .. pathetic, i know .. LOL .. so, i went out today as my parents wanted to do shopping .. hung out with a friend and got teased by some humans .. i'm now known as an AUNTY =.= so sad, man ..

thank you

Cheok Huei Chun March 19 at 12:56pm : there is the million of reasons why you smile, but there is no solid reason why you can't smile ...i'm telling you this, even life is horrible, hard or watever....be strong...face it ...once again LIFE IS NOT MEANINGFUL WITHOUT CHALLENGE ..WE LIVE IN THIS WORLD IS FOR HAPPINESS, NOT SADNESS ...i know is hard for you..but try it .....i know you can do it ....i can count on you .....YOU CAN DO IT .....and i'll be here for you no matter wat thing happens ...and i'll try my best to cheer you up ....CHEER UP, MY DEAR...i want to see the ALY in hyperactive mode who always laugh by my funny stuffs ...who always have a sweet smile ....and ur innocent face ...you have become one of my important person in my life .. BE BACK IN ACTION SOON =) ...................... [i have a hundread and one reasons why i wanna post this up .. yes, i copied and pasted this.. one of the reasons is that i wanna make myself realise this, although i'm seriously hurt by THAT SOMEONE .. i'd like to say THANK YOU .. i'm sorry for not smiling when you requsted me to .. i'm sorry that i didn't laugh when you put on that show for me .. however, i want you to know that i really apprieciate this .. no one has ever tried cheering me up and supporting me like this before .. no one has ever been there for me whenever i needed someone .. i'm truly grateful .. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING]