To my dear, dear AE mentor, Mr Nate

29th April 2014

Alright now.. it's been a very, very long time since I have last updated my blog, well, it's been 3 years over now.. 

i'm now using this blog for the next 5 weeks for YOU to read, Mr Nate =) 

however, it's a great thing, too that i am now reviving this blog of mine.. i remember using this blog to express my frustrations, anger, sadness and complaints.. well, that was when i was much younger.. i remember started blogging since 15 and all the way till i was 17.. 

i remember being deeply in love with the man of my dreams who i met in Friendster back in 2008, but it's now all history since February this year.. 

looking back at my previous posts, i see myself very immature and rather sensitive, more like a coward and hiding everything and yet looking for trouble..haha, i know understand why my mum would refer me as rather childish and never look at things the other way.. 

now that i am 20, many things have changed.. i have got a very different lifestyle, so different that no one remembers who and how i have been all thee while until yesterday.. everyone saw the photos that i have posted about me in a photoshoot, for portfolio purposes.. i remember i was once a nobody back in Ipoh, but now that i'm somewhat a somebody now, everyone looked at me at a different aspect.. they didint remember me or maybe i can put it in a way that no one even remembered that i existed.. i feel rather funny, now that i'm being refered as like one of those Miss Popular in Ipoh now.  

ahhh, i'm going in too deep now >.< 

more update next week now! 

HEY~

25th June 2011
hey, people~ i'm finally back for blogging AFTER such a BUSY day =.=l'l all these while, was supposingly to be preparing for sports day, but in the end, we have to go for this S.O.X thingy or whatever it is, in stadium indera mulia ^.^ and sports was postponed to 2nd of july.. we had a friendly drumline match and friendly music match with our brother school band, ACS MILITARY BAND XD.. it was fun eventhough we were tired like mad.. the boys aren't that bad.. their percussion is strong and so OHMMM..

the most surprising thing is that my darling came for me ~~ it was unexpected and i love it so much XD over  reacting, i know.. who cares?? ilovehim .. did i mention that we're already 14 months and 5 days old ?? tweeheehee~~ i love the way we are now and i don't want a single thing to change if that can be possible.. i love us just the way we are now.. the ChunYeng love story never ends~ anyway, like i said, it was unexpected and i was indeed very shocked as i eventually got tapped on my shoulder very hard and my heart was pumping very fast as i thought it was a stranger or someone trying to get me or something .. haha.. funny and lame, i know ..

oh, well.. enough of blogging for now .. many things had happened in the time between since the day i last blogged, but i am currently very exhausted and tired .. off to rest for me =p i'll blog some other time when i can ,,

ciaos~

-alyloh-

p/s : i want the photo which we had snapped today ~

i'm superb LAZIE

16th March 2010
hey, people.. i'm back again.. it's the holidays and i'm so not freaking enjoying it nor making use of it.. i don't underdatnd myself-lahh.. SPM coming soon and i might have to admit that my OWN SPM is 5 months away =.= awkward, i know.. it'll only be the trials 5 months later.. WHO STNKINGLY CARES ?? i need those results to just get my freaking ass into ngee aun next year.. intake would be in april next year and the open house in on january 2012.. sighhhhhhhhhhh.. 2011 is not even over and i'm already planning for next year and yes, i know i'm freaking myself over with the collage and suff, but i want to do everything the best with my own effort..

nevermind, enough of that.. let me tell you what had happened to me recently.. on saturday, 12th of march, i accidently ate a piece of medium-sized beef by mistake.. i didn't do that on purpose as it was a malay wedding.. Dear Lord, please forgive me.. i mean it that i didn't do on purpose.. ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... oh well, it's just a small mistake, right ?? anyhow, another funny  thing happened to me which was just yesterday.. i was out having lunch and then saw a big group of leo club members.. thw moment i stepped out of kopitiam, alan thoo was looking at me and i was the FIRST one to be asked to trade the plastic bag with a  friendly environment bag as the leo-ians were on a project of 'go green' .. embarrassing enough, i know..

i wonder what's going to happen to me next ??

guess i'd have to sit and wait..

loves,

 frustrated and annoyed y

a busy february

26th February 2011
it's another busy saturday and in fact, i've never had any free time for leisure myself .. everyday is all about homework, school, tuition, homework, tuition, homework, band, tuition, school, practices, revision, homework, tuition, practices, homework, revision, school, tuition, band, tuition, homework and lastly, love.. 

i'm still alive after going through all these for 2 months consecutively without fail at all .. i've been spending all my time with books, books and B-O-O-K-S.. i know that i did study, but sometimes i would wonder whether what i have studied is more than enough without even doing revision.. i admit i'm too lazy, but there's something pushing me too, though .. i'm lack of confidence and support, but what am i to do when ... ... ... well, i've no proper words for that statement.. i simply don't know what to write.. i'm so lack of confidence (??) ISIMPLYDONTKNOWATALL .. sigh .. dear Lord, please bless me with a better future eventhough it could last for just a few minutes.. i would appreciate it well without complaining, i promise..

currently, i am facing some issues that i can hardly solve eventhough it's just a small issue..  effa and gang is complaining that they don't like that way how WE are cooperating.. i mean, i would tolerate with person A, but she wouldn't cooperate with me.. i tau i ada kuasa yang lebih besar tetapi apa boleh saya buat apabila ada orang yang tarak guna langsung mau lawan saya secara mental ?? i mean, it's like person A is trying to be the boss of herself and i know that very well, but i have to do my part to avoid the conflict between person A and i .. i can't cause a conflict and let the cooperation die like that especially in a group of humans of around 50 people and yet, the situation now is that we're having a big function.. i hate to break this up-lahh, but i HATE doing most of the decisions and HATE not knowing anything when majority of the people knows what is happening just BEHIND MY DUMB ASS BACK.. i can't take this anymore and i mean this very seriously.. SIGH ..

second item, i'm under a very big process of trying to study as hard as possible to get my ass into ngee aun poly or maybe prefreably into singapore poly cause it's nearer to where i would be staying =p i want to have a bright future and right up until today, i am still undecided on what to work as and since i don't know what to work as, how am i going to take up the career courses ?? i wanna go for music very badly, i wanna fly in the air very badly, i wanna play in the orchestra very badly and i wanna go for a job that is indeed very challenging, but i know i have to give them all up.. i have to think of the person who i love.. there're so many things for ALY LOH  to think of.. i have an unfixed future, unfixed career and an unfixed work or maybe even more than that .. ihatealloftheseandimeanthemseriously.. life is simply very complicating when you're undecided and don't know where to head your next destination..

i guess i just got too carried away with my complaints for now.. i seriously need a nervous break down from now onwards .. i'll head to my thinking room and give more thought on my problems..

-aly loh-

my FIRST post for January

29th January 2011
it's already toward the end of january and i'm now posting my FIRST post for the year 2011 =.=ll this is such a sad case-LAHH .. eeeeee.. can't help it .. i've been terribly busy with tuition and homework and stay backs all these while and i have absoulutely no time for my ownself.. GAH ~ i can't stand being a 17-year-old teenage girl right now .. being a BL is not in  my wish list ..iwishedtobeasecretarysobadlyandididntgetthatpost=.=..i guess i can't be a PROPER BL after all .. all the humans around me are commenting for this and that and yet i'm not doing anything with it.. actually, that doesn't matter.. what bugs me is that i was getting blamed for a situation just now long ago and it was totally NOT my fault AT ALL..

alright, leave that aside for now.. second item, i seriously LOATHE chemistry to the MAX.. everyone knows that CCL is the ketua panitia kimia, but she is the HELL OF YOURS DREAMS and i mean that statement.. however, the good thing is that this year i gave a good inpession to my class teacher, which means, for the first time in my schooling life, there will be NO COMPLAINTS from the teacher to my dearest mummy <3~~ tweeheehee~~i banyak-banyak suka <3 unlike back when i was 14, that bloody asshole who contaminated me until i was the worst student in the whole school =.= sad, isn't it ?? who cares ?? i have had my JUSTICE ^.^ happy betul~

hmmmm, third item, eh ?? well, so far in school i've been behaving well (i assume).. and i really do all my homework this year and there's really very very VERY less rush-hour work this year.. and i really really did pay attention both in school and tuition classes.. and the funny thing is that i now can do balance equation for chemistry =.=ll oh well, better late than never even try doing it..

lastly before i chao from here, i just wanna drop by and say...

...i love you , sayang <3

adios~

ilots of love,

aly loh

-y-

31st December 2010
i felt so sorry to my bloggie.. i couldn't believe that it's already the last day of 2010.. my form 4 year just ended like so and i'm now waiting to get a year older in another few more hours, which means i'm dying to get my ass OFF of my freaking 5th-form class and get the hell out of HERE..
oh well, guess i have to patient and go through it as well.. anyhow, it'll be a new year tomorrow.. i've got a few wishes to be fulfilled and one of them is the most important one =] YOU are one of them, my dear <3 ahaha.. whatever my wish is, i only have 1 important one although i'm supposed to put the other one as the priority.. nevermind, forget all the craps.. i'm done blogging for now.. i'll update more when anything comes up..

SAYONARA~

lotsa love,

-alyloh-

aka y

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it's so freaking boring~!! whether the exams are still on or not, there're no differences at all.. wait.. actually, there IS .. before exam, we only tension and keep digging ourselves into the books while after exams, WE TENSION ABOUT OUR STUPID, FREAKING MARKS ... ish .. i tak suka langsung .. you know what?? i've just failed at around 6-7 freaking subjects.. i've totally failed all my science subjects and even is my mod. maths and add maths.. i've failed history and i've failed P.E .. at least i didn't fail moral this time .. for the first time in my form 4 life, i've passed moral.. i did well on the structural questions and for the first time, i managed my essay questions.. embarrasing, but i'm still happy about it .. the other subjets are good.. english is the only subject that i WILL NEVER FAIL.. i'm quite satisfied with my bahasa this time.. oh well, nothing is perfect.. nevermind, forget it.. i still have SPM next year.. after SPM, i have college .. and after college, i'm going to work and then my life is DONE.. ahaha.. stupid, i know .. i do wish to be free now, but i couldn't due to the LAST YEAR of school .. GAH.. this sucks .. ISH ..