very confused ~~

28th July 2009 i don't know what's gotten into me these days .. why am i like this ?? i'm facing a GREAT dilemma which i really can't decide on !! i really can't believe this myself .. this is really a very BIG problem i'm facing now .. and i wanna declare what's gonna happen for the next few years when i'm ... ... ... ... ... ... well, i don't wanna mention it, though .. it's too private if i tell this out to the public .. *sigh* when is this dilemma gonna end ?? i seriously wanna know what's gonna happen soon .. as in like - VERY SOON although i've another few years .. i've never felt like this before, though .. i just simply can't control this strange feeling !! it's just simply, SIMPLY STRANGE .. what am i gonna do ?? *sigh* -confused aly-

MVS night

26th July 2009 ok, next time, i'll never again sleep so darn, freaking late .. just because of the MVS, i can only sleep at 12.45am just THIS MORNING !! aikzz .. still, going to the MVS can really consider worth it .. the 'loch and mountain' was the first song .. eupho solo kantoi-ed .. overall, it was a good show, i'll say .. the part which i really just simply LOVE was the part when they played ABBA's songs .. they played a 'lil of DANCING QUEEN and also not to forget my favourite MAMMA-MIA .. i just simply, simply LOVE that song !! lol .. can't believe that i eventually enjoyed it very much, though .. haha .. there's still nothing more than i can love .. I LOVE THE CUTIE KANGAROOS !! thanks, alot for the CD's too .. nice songs in there .. now, i can play TIME TO SAY GOODBYE edi !! YAY !! that's good news, i guess .. 'cause i'm not familiar with that song .. now, i listen to it again, and again. and again, AND AGAIN !! i'll be more familiar with it from now onwards .. *evil grinzz* ~*aly loves MVS*~

excited, but regret ..

25th July 2009 my clock now shows 4.24 pm and i'm supposed to be in ILTI doing nothing but talking and making noise in class .. it's too bad that i got sick all of the sudden .. *sigh* sad case .. BUT .. nevermind .. i'm excited to go to ANDERSON'S MVS today .. i've never been to the Ipoh's Town Hall before .. now i can get the chance to go there .. lol .. and newayz .. CONGRATULATIONS TO MMB !! SPLENDID JOB DONE !! ~*aly*~

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24th July 2009 aikzz .. another is going to just pass like that .. i'm down with my life .. and i seriously have no title for this damn blog .. haizz .. this is really a sad case .. 'cause my barin totally washed out now .. i don't even now what to think or don't know what to do !! *sigh* what the hell is up with me these days .. unexpected, though .. aikzz .. who cares .. i'm thinking about what to give HER .. i've made this thing and i think that this present to HER is really very lame .. i've nothing else to think of !! haizz .. i'm so sorry that i have to give YOU such a thing .. it's barely a thing appreciate and to remember !! YOU'll know what it is very soon .. ~*aly*~

i'm in love with TRIGONOMETRY ..

23rd July 2009 somehow i don't know why i'm love with maths, especially trigonometry .. lol .. it's like - so easy !! it's cery easy to calculate all the tangent, sine and cosine .. it's a good thing that my pythagoras' theorem is very good .. if not, i sure kantoi .. lol .. aikzzz .. i'm now very worried about my studies, though .. it sometimes makes me wonder about my future .. and i don't even know what's my ambition .. 1 euphoist 2 violinist 3 musician 4 casino dealer 5 air stewardess 6 music teacher i just simply DON'T KNOW .. *sigh* well .. it all depends, i guess .. I HATE MY LIFE .. ~*aly*~

another boring day ..

22nd July 2009 hmmm .. i don't know what to write, though .. i'm just updating blog .. well, just had an exam yesterday about english .. it's nothing much, but i seriously hate the papers !! it seems that the papers are from australia .. and i thought the papers are from england .. still, the papers are quite ok .. i can still manage .. you just need to know what the heck they write there .. it's more to reading, actually .. and i can't believe that i had 20 bucks to just answer OBJECTIVE quetions !! *sigh* forget about it .. it's already paid and it's already over .. newayz, i really wish to skip classes these days .. i don't know why, but i'm not used to sitting in the class and study like a nerd .. i too used to skip class and go out for practices, but it's a good thing that it's over .. PMR TRIALS ARE COMING VERY SOON !! i'll be so dead if i just simply don't study .. especially during PMR .. aikzz .. i don't know why i'm lazy nowadays, but there's benefit, i guess .. lol .. ~*aly*~

mentally broken down

sometimes, i wonder ..

.....

if i DID choose the right guy to love ..

...and i'm wondering now ..

what to do now ..

YOU don't keep your promises

YOU don't try to comfort me whenever i'm angry or whenever i'm down

YOU only care about YOURSELF and not me

YOU don't talk whatever i reply you

i want YOU to comfort me whenever i'm angry or whenever i'm down

i don't want you to be such a ..

..PAK POH..

i want you to care about me

i want you to keep YOUR promises

whenever i want YOU, i really need YOU

i don't want to be alone

i don't wanna be YOUR toy anymore

'cause

i can't stand this anymore

what's up with YOU ??

why are YOU doing this ??

what do YOU want from me ??

YOU'll say you love me

BUT

YOU're not treating me as YOURs

YOU absolutely dont't protect me

and

YOU don't even care whatever i tell you

that's because..

..YOU don't listen to me..

this is seriously ridiculous

and i'm tired of all these stuff

i'll pray that YOU'll leave me alone

with love,

miserable - aly

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18th July 2009 well .. not much of a day, though .. ermm .. well, this morning we had a so-called 'project' .. it was fun, i guess .. well .. i don't know how to put this up .. 'cause it was really making my mind very frustrated and also not to forget that it near BLAST .. aikz .. after the whole thing in school, went home and bathed .. after bathing, i had a simple lunch and went to tuition as usual .. today in tuition, it wasn't really that fun. though .. less people attended, so we ended up having a debate .. GIRLS VS. BOYS .. TOPIC : GIRLS MATURES FASTER THAN BOYS. DISCUSS. so, i've to sit on the girls' side 'cause i've been sitting on the boys' side for all these while .. i had alot of stuff to crap with them, but it's not the same without Zheng Liang, though .. i know that this might sound weird, but i really miss him .. miss TALKING & HAVING FUN with him like how we used to .. somehow, i don't know why he doesn't even talk to me .. ever since that girl returned, he ignored me .. it has been 2 weeks since i've last socialized with him .. i really, really miss talking and having fun with him .. ~*aly*~

i shall hate JAPS as long as i live in this world !!

16th July 2009 based on the matter above, i really mean it .. INJECTIONS and NEEDLES are really not my 'toys' .. when i got the shot on tuesday, on the spot just yesterday, i got fever !! was darn bad luck .. of all students, so less people got fever .. ... ... ... and i happened to be one of them .. boohoo .. *sigh* such a sad case .. the worst case is that i left arm now is not in the condition .. it's really painful .. it's like hell .. got bitten twice in school .. *sigh* I DON'T LIKE THIS AT ALL !!! SOS ~~ !! ~*aly*~

BEAUTIFUL SUNDAY

12th July 2009 well, it's not really in the mood in the morning, though .. still, i don't know how YOU know that i'll be heading to jj today, but then still, thanks for the ticket to the MVS concert !! and i want my BABY to be there too .. haha ..

i'm darn, flaming angry !!

9th July 2009 alright, ppl .. i'm like so darn fed up !! the results was just announced yesterday .. and we got f***king 2nd place !! i seriously can't believe that we lost to a bunch of f***king losers !!! GGGAAAAHHHHHHH !! darn freaking mad !! iiiissshhhhhh ~~ ..... .... ... .. . wait .. .. .. oh yeah .. i forgot that the results are not yet comfirmed .. lol .. cause we eventually heard that those LOSERS can't perform in the stadium for no reason .. i bet that one of the LOSERS made a 'lil 'rasuah' .. hah !! i bet THEY did it .. once they annouced MGSMB as first prize, we'll see who's the real LOSER by then .. HA HA HA !! ~*aly*~

6th July 2009 IT'S SIXTH OF JULY AND THIS HAPPENS TO BE SOMEONE'S SPECIAL DAY .. THE DAY WHEN SOMEONE GETS OLD .. haha .. THE DAY WHEN SOMEONE GETS THE CENTRE OF ATTENTION ONCE A YEAR .. .. HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, SJY .. .. I LURVE YOU .. with love, ALY

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4th July 2009 hmmm ... i'm not even sure what happened lately .. i've been blur for the whole day already !! well, just thursday was report card's day .. CHEAH kept on elaborating the same damn subject and i was very frustrated .. the time ticked away and it made my mum and i late for SUSHI .. i know that this is very funny, but mummy was satisfied with my results, though it's not really a pretty sight .. after sushi, went to cold storage and bought veges !! heehee .. then i went to the basement to fetch him .. so, after fetching him, went to my house .. suprisingly, he haven't had lunch ... =.=l'l swt ~~ we've already informed him to have lunch first-lahh !! still, mummy cooked him instant noodles while i bathed .. lol .. then, yesterday .. hmmm .. nothing much happened, though .. then, today came .. ... ... ... ... was supposingly to have the singapore sir to come over to our school and i shall forever hate PGS !! because of them, the singapore-ian instructor only had about 20 minutes with us .. uuugggghhhhhhh .. and yet, i got teased by LAM MING HAN, LAM MING SYUEN AND NG ZHENG LIANG !! i have to make sure that i'll never EVER again talk to him .. gosh .. is it wrong to sit beside him, though it was a 'lil close ?? it's not like i wanted to sit so near .. iiisssssshhhhhhhhhh .... YOU'LL PAY, NG ZHENG LIANG !! ~*aly*~

the competiton was really a SUCCESS !!

1st July 2009 alright now.. i was really very nervous when the MMB came in .. i seriously can't believe that the guard eventually let them come in !! i was like - WTH ??!! really, really unbelieveable .. so, the show began .. and i must say that quite alot of people stayed back to watch the formation, though .. anyway, back to the story .. ... ... ok, so, my heart was pumping like anything that's i've never experienced before .. i've never felt so nervous in my WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE !! lol .. phantom was ok, i guess .. then comes to tanah pusaka .. i can't believe that i eventually almost blasted the high notes .. still, i managed to keep up .. then here come the percussion solo .. i find that part was the neat-est !! we all did everything together !! everybody screamed, though .. our last performance, aztec, was also ok .. according to sir mun ming and sir wai mun, we can eventually get 8 AND 8.5 OVER 10 !! YAHOO !! let's pray that we, MGS MILITARY BAND CAN GO TO THE STADIUM TO PERFORM !! -cause i've never been inside the stadium before- swt case, right ?? lol .. still, i'm very happy on what we have done and i'm proud of being a band member !! WITH PRIDE, WE SHALL MARCH ON !! GO MGS MILTARY BAND !! ~*aly loves eupho*~