untiled

28th October 2009 until when i can only hear from you? i always wanted to stay .. Dun make me leave you .. K? who the hell do you think you are?? what do you want to do with me ?? kill me ?? hit me ?? FINE .. i don't care whatever you're gonna do to me .. i don't feel like living anymore .. go ahead and gossip all you want to the others in your school .. i'm also giving you the permission to even gossip at any school you wish .. i don't care if you mention me as a f**king bitch to the whole world .. you may leave me if you wish .. i've told you so many uncountable times .. LEAVE ME IF YOU'RE FED UP.. However, you've never listened .. it's not my fault that this situaton became like this .. i've no more trust in you .. besides, your bloody mother HATES ME .. or more like UBBERLY HATING ME LIKE A USELESS DEVIL who thinks that THE GIRL seduces the SON .. i can't stand this anymore .. i'm too tired of all these RUBBISH ..

shut your ass up..

..and don't make me go EMO again..

my confession

love is a feeling that no one would avoid

it is a symbol of trust

it gives you warmth and comfort

it gives you protection

one protecting the other one from fear and danger

just one stare, you'll feel you're adored

just one touch, you'll feel safe

just one kiss, you'll feel you're in heaven

*****

HOWEVER

*****

not everyone can maintain this feeling

and it'll cause alot of consequences

it's known as the symbol of no more trust

they'll hurt you and care no more

you'll gain nothing from them

the only thing you'll gain is a broken, bleeding heart deep down inside you

even if you have forgotten them,

your heart still has it's trace of all the pain you've suffered

GHOST DAY

18th September 2009 i had a so-called mini rush hour .. i had no idea that my parents were taking me to make contact lenses .. because of that, i got myself 1 hour and 30 minutes LATE to jusco !! it was a good thing that when i reached there, i was 20 minutes early for the movie .. HAHA .. the movie-of-the-day for today is WHERE GOT GHOST .. heezz .. it's somehow a comedy ghost movie yet, i was still a 'lil frighthen, though .. the movie was eventually divided into 3 series .. the 2nd one really got me on my nerves .. there was like one part when i really got so scared that i sat so low and i ended up hugging my bag and covering it over my head .. the FELLA beside me was, yet, interested with that part and kept requesting me to finish up his popcorn .. and yet, he kept waving his hand infront of me so i wouldn't get scared (?) i don't know.. that part creeps me out .. i didn't even make a peep .. i waited till the horror part was over as i really nearly screamed my ass OUT .. i did scream at one part, slightly .. i forgot about the scene as most of the part is really scary, however, there're also moral values for us to learn .. the last series really thought people as lesson which is telling us that we must value our life, health and peace .. besides the scary part, i, too, laughed my ass OUT .. seriously HILARIOUS .. yet, the fella beside me laughed MORE crazy-ly than me .. HAHA ..

-aly loh-

DEATH NOTE

how to use the human whose name is written in this note shall die. the human whose name is written in this note will die in 40 seconds if the cause of death is not stated,with a heart attack however, if the cause of death - the action and the time is stated, they'll constantly die within 6 minutes and 40 seconds the human owner of the death note is able to make a deal with the shimigami (deah god) who used to own the note. The human owner is able to have the shimigami's eyes which enables them to see the names of other people and their lifespans above their heads. In order to have the shimigami's eyes, the owner, however, must trade half of their priceless remianing lifepans. the human whose name is mis-spelt or sharing the same name, the death note will NOT take any effect. mind me, but i just SERIOUSLY LOVE death note ..i eventually combined most of the rules of the note, though .. i can't remember much as there are quite many rules .. i've been acting like a freak lately .. i've been watching death note manga series for 2 days in a row with 37 episodes !! freaky, eh ?? LOL .. i just simply can't resist this .. it's full of mysteries .. however, i don't like the part when Near came into the picture .. well, at least Near resembles a 'lil of L, but why must Light die ??!! okay, we all know that Light is Kira and he did all the killing with the criminals and stuff ... ... ... ... i guess i've nothing to say, though .. in any situation, Light has to die for committing crimes like that, i guess .. BUT Light was just trying to make a better world .. .. and i don't get WHY must L die too .. i prefer L than Near .. L's cool, people .. best of the best detectives, although Near is somehow a better detective AND creppier .. 17th September 2009 i've been spending my so-called precious holidays at home, watching death note and practising my violin .. i'm somehow improving my violin skills nowadays like what my mum said this morning .. ever since i was 8, i barely keep my violin cleaned .. at the age of 15 now, i'm eventually polishing my violin like how i do to my baby eupho .. i wonder why, though .. have i grown the feeling of love towards the violin ?? if it is, i'm surprised .. i've never liked or loved string family instruments .. ever since i've joined the band, i was directly in love with brass instruments .. i take good care of my baby eupho every now and then .. now i ended up doing the same thing to my violin .. this is just great .. i'm in love with strings already - partly .. WHO KNOWS, THOUGH ..

-aly loh-

random post of the week

14th September 2009 okay, nothing much happened in school .. we were kinda forced to join the activities organised by the school and that reminds me of what song should i play ??!!! GAH ~~ so much for joining such activities, though .. it was an order from the teachers and i have been forced to join like - 3 events which partly needs my talent - playing the violin .. well, it's actually 2 events, though .. the other 1 is about the choral speaking .. as for the other 2, i don't wanna talk about it .. i feel extremely shy about this .. after school, mum and i went for SUSHI !! and guess what ? while i was on the queue with mum, there were eventually a bunch of sam tet guys over the left side .. i was looking at them as one of them really caught my attention - his height .. besides that, it's obvious that they were form 3 students as they dismisses earlier than the form 4's and form 5's .. then, one short and chubby guy caught my attention as he was walking towards that gang of boys .. somehow, i managed to recogize that chubby guy .. i was caught whispering the name of the guy to myself by mum .. then i told her that i know that chubby guy.. i kept starring at him until he noticed me .. i was a 'lil shy, somehow .. he held one of his hand up, giving a sign of hello like how most guys do and i did the same thing to him and gave a slight smiled .. IT'S BEEN A WHILE, MING SUEN .. yea, you guys guessed it .. it's ming suen whom i saw today .. after seeing him, somehow i felt like i've missed him .. ... ... ... alot .. really, i mean it .. i didn't get to talk to him as he was with his friends, but i know that i was the centre of the attention for a while when our eyes met .. wanna know why ?? all of his friends were looking at me .. i nearly blushed .. i wonder why ?? this is confusing me .. maybe it's because it's been a while since i've last met him .. it's been almost 2 months, people and for almost 2 months i've been sticking wih richard and zheng liang ever since he and his brother left .. still, i've gotta admit this, though .. he looks better with long fringe XD HAHA .. i can't help it, people !! he's just so cute as usual, it's still a bad thing that he hasn't grow any taller, but somehow it's a good thing .. if it wasn't because of his height, i wouldn't keep starring at him and let our eyes met like that .. XD LOL .. I MISS YOU, MING SUEN !! possible, please do come back to ILTI .. without you, there has been less C-R-A-P-S between richard and i .. when you were there, i had a friend to talk to .. now i'm stuck with a friendly nerd who cares alot for me ..

lotza love,

-aly loh-

my extreme L-O-N-G post

13th September 2009 ALRIGHT, PEOPLE !! IT'S TIME FOR BUSINESS, BABE !! GET ME SOME SNACKS, SOME NINTENDO DS's, SOME DVD's, SOME MANGA's, SOME TV's, SOME NOVELS and last but not least, MY FRIENDS !! PMR IS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR,BABE !! WOOHOO ~~ *screams out for joy* omg, i'm like - so happy now .. FREEDOM, BABE, F-R-E-E-D-O-M !! you've heard me, people !! FREEDOM !! no more digging my head into so many books anymore !! no more naggings, no more frustration, NO MORE SCOLDINGS !! i'm so FREE !! i can feel it, babe !! alright, i'll update about what ever happened in school since last wednesday .. 7th Spetember woke up as usual at 6am in the morning and i arrived school at around 6.45 .. i was the earliest among my friends so i did my last minute studies for BAHASA .. as usual, when my friends arrived, we went to the canteen for breakfast .. after breakfast, we went back to the area nearby the examination hall and did our last minutes studies together .. on the first day or pmr, i was really, REALLY nervous .. somehow, one funny thing came into my mind .. we wore masks, took temperarure and used sanitizers !! it's like there's really a spread of H1N1, though .. haha .. so, after all these stuff, we went into the examination hall .. the pengawas checked everyting on us .. we're not even allowed to bring in our purses and wallets in .. so strict, man .. LOL .. soon, we started our 1st paper and then continued with the 2nd paper of BAHASA .. and the day ended like that .. 8th September woah ~ the day was really L-O-N-G, ppl !! 4 papers for this day and we stayed back till 4pm, babe !! i did my usual stuff in the morning with my friends .. again there were the masks, temperature and sanitizers .. in the hall again, they checked us thoroughly .. our day started with ENGLISH paper 1, then paper 2 and then continously flow with SCIENCE paper 1 .. we had our REAL recess around in the afternoon .. SCIENCE paper 2 was coming soon and again i did my last minute studies with my group .. soon, paper 2 was launched and went home at 4pm .. 9th September it was a day of so-called freedom, i guess .. only one paper which was GEOGRAPHY .. i nearly slept while doing that paper .. i eventually finished the paper within 45 minutes .. and the day ended at 9.30 .. -saturday& sunday came- 12th September another L-O-N-G day .. went back at aroung 3.30pm .. again with masks, temperature and SANITIZERS !! boring routine in the morning, though .. this day, the papers were quite ok .. we started our day with MATHS paper 1 and continuosly with paper 2 .. then we had 1 hour and 30 minutes of break .. spent the time in the canteen, toilet and group discussion .. after the long break, finally our last paper of the day was soon launched .. HISTORY !! and soon went back with a very tired expression of mentality and physicallity .. 13th September today was the BEST day of my life !! only 1 paper which is KEMAHIRAN HIDUP .. again i only used 30 minutes to finish 60 questions and i used the 1 hour to just seriously S-L-E-E-P !! i know that SOMEONE out there is seriously thinking in HIS mind, telling to HIMSELF .. "ai hoy.. really a GUINEA PIG-lahh" .. you know who you are... LOL .. .. AND NOW, i'm here, blogging .. typing out everything i experienced the whole 5 days .. OMG, look at the TIME !! it's 9.30 and it's so past my bedtime .. well, gotta sleep, ppl !! nights !!

-aly loh-

my LAST post of the day

6th September 2009 GAH ~ i have less than 24 hours to face this war.. PMR, BABE !! it's tomorrow !! sigh .. i would like to wish all of my friends GAMBATEH !! tomorrow, i have 2 papers .. both are bahasa malaysia .. hmmm .. i still don't know what to do about my KOMSAS !! not just only komsas, but the whole paper of the 2nd paper .. 7th september - BM 1 BM2 8th september -ENGLISH 1 ENGLISH2 SCIENCE1 SCIENCE2 9th september- GEOGRAPHY -saturday&sunday- 12th september- MATHEMATICS1 MATHEMATICS2 HISTORY 13th september - KEMAHIRAN HIDUP ..AFTER THAT.. ...i'll be free as a bird in the sky !! GAH, I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE 13TH TO COME !! ..and someone promised me hamsters !! haha .. then makan-makan, but someone wants to eat the hamsters instead .. LOL .. i might wanna get myself fully protected for mentioning this in here, just in case .. heehee .. newayz people, wish me luck to pass everything !! peace out and i'm gonna abandon my blog for 1 week from tomorrow .. i will be back on the 13h, people !!

-aly loh-